"self abandonment"

Hey friend, 

The receiving of what you are, at the core of you, could be the most significant thing that you could ever do.

Consider that you relationship to yourself determines & dictates every single thing in your life

So you could spend your days trying to push a million different things up a hill, or you could focus on the one thing that creates everything, you. 

The receiving of all that you are can be uncomfortable, difficult, because our whole lives we have been taught to do everything but. 

To elevate others, submit to authority, consider the needs of others before your own, hold their opinion of you above your own reputation with yourself. 

The receiving of yourself is not some woman’s activewear spring marketing campaign about body positivity - the receiving of yourself is about your ability to be there & show up for yourself in the most significant way, when no one else will.

For myself (& perhaps for others), my relationship to myself has been a lot like this..

i abandon myself when i need me the most

i judge myself when i need my grace the most

i distract myself when i need the best of my own attention

i reject myself when i need my acceptance most

i hate myself when i need my own love the most

i look to others to receive me when i refuse to receive myself

when i am at my worst, i give myself the least.

i look down on myself, when i really need to be the one to lift me up off the ground

Receiving, releasing & creating change in my relationship to me has had a lot of my attention this last week. Its been significant.

I’m grateful that is has come into my awareness, because like a lot of these things they remain hidden & unconscious until we are ready to confront them.

Consider friend, until you are able to receive all that you are, you will require it from others and be dependant on others to give you what truly only you can give yourself.

Most never afford themselves the opportunity to experience this.

-Jay

Jay Topp is a 24 year old writer, marketer, film maker & self-led educator originally from Australia, now based in Buenos Aires, Argentina. You can see his films here. Instagram here. And his business website here.

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